Overcast

I'm in pain today.
Summer has unofficially said goodbye to 2011, and I cannot stop crying.
(Okay so the family in Cape Town is looking FORWARD to their summer - you know what I mean)

Even the Beach seemed colder - literally and emotionally.
Her air was crisp and her wind was strong...
The sun put up at fight and proved victorious by the end of the day, but not before the clouds dominated most of my time there.

There are clouds hanging heavily around the people that I love the most right now.
So much so, that I can't even see them clearly and vice versa.
Like the sun today, I am straining and working very hard to lessen the chill and brighten things up.

It is starting to take it's toll.

I will look to the sky for inspiration.
There may be coolness in the air, harshness to reality, and many hearts in search of healing, but the sun prevails eventually.
And thank God for that.

I can't carry these sins on my back

Don't wanna carry anymore

I'm gonna carry this train of the track

I'm gonna swim to the ocean floor

- Madonna